For once do what you WANT!!!

Life for me had always been on a search mode. No matter what I had I was always looking for something new, something different, something fast, something NOW!!! Ass time has moved on and I have gotten older, I no longer like change, that is one of my biggest issues. I like things how they are, funny how me saying I use to like something different that I would say now I don't like change at all. I do the same damn think almost daily, get up, shower, dress, go to work, work, work and work, get off work, go home, Dee cooks (or go out to get some dinner) we eat, I relax, get on the PC, watch something, shower again, talk to Dee while I relax, go on one of my games that has rain for me to listen while I sleep (yeah seriously), lay down for a bit and go to Sleep. Yes, ladies and gents that is my rou-tine. The past few days things have been a bit different. I been sick so my whole routine because of it was changed, re altered, restructured, reconfigured. My sickness has honesty make me see my routine more then I ever did before. I have said so many times that I want to start my online business again, I want to write a book, I want to start blogging more, I want to take better care of myself, I want to start going out to movies with friends, I want to enjoy my life more, I want, I WANT I WANT!! But each day when I get home or get up on my off day the wants no longer seem important then the need for the routine. Now with all that being said I do think my time to do what I want is long over due. I need to stop needing and starting allowing my wants to be needs. Life is much too short, time is not promised to anyone, and I am not getting any damn older. For once I want to do what I WANT!!!!