A family reaching out..

My sister "Di Di" pronounced Dee Dee sent me a letter a few days back, It was short but to the point. She missed me and wanted to hear from me. Di and I were always close, in general she was like a second or should I say third mom to me not counting my real mother and of course my grandmother who raised me. The only other woman I can honesty say I feel like a mom to me is Jerrie which you all know about from previous post on my other blog and this one. I haven't reached out to her because of so many reasons, none bad, just I guess me being so scared to get close to anyone for fear of not being able to really get close again. Di daughter Ronnie and I were close as well, I would tell her any and everything and trusted her to never repeat it to anyone. Her daughter Kenya (Ronnie's Daughter) is my god child. I wrote an email to her and am waiting for a response. I realize when I got her letter I miss her, I miss Ronnie, I miss Kenya, hell I miss them all. I know I am the really anti social one in the family believe it or not, but right now at this time in my life I think my family would be a welcome. I never was one to contact them when I was sick or ill, or had issues I always just handle things on my own but life is short, things change and you have to look beyond the past and move on. So I await a response and look forward to getting close again.